For years now I have been in "survival mode". I do not know if there was recently an episode on Dr. Oz about this or what, but lately the word has come up a LOT. Anytime I open up, which I also have been doing a lot. The response is frequently "well, you have been in survival mode".
So, now that I have accepted that this was my life for years, I am hoping to transition from "surviving" to living as I start my thirties. Unfortunately, I have no idea how to do so.
Survival mode is a hard thing to shake. After all, we are still sort of barely surviving over here. I cannot afford to take fancy classes or go on yoga retreats. And it seems to me, unfortunately, that people who are not in "survival mode" are wealthy and have a lot of free time, or at the very least have someone else taking care of them. I need lessons on how not to be in survival mode.
I used to live in a very philosophical world. Nothing was concrete. Now I cannot even tell you what my favorite color is. Hopefully the day will come when I can rediscover a little of this, while grasping some sort of balance.
So, now that I have accepted that this was my life for years, I am hoping to transition from "surviving" to living as I start my thirties. Unfortunately, I have no idea how to do so.
Survival mode is a hard thing to shake. After all, we are still sort of barely surviving over here. I cannot afford to take fancy classes or go on yoga retreats. And it seems to me, unfortunately, that people who are not in "survival mode" are wealthy and have a lot of free time, or at the very least have someone else taking care of them. I need lessons on how not to be in survival mode.
I used to live in a very philosophical world. Nothing was concrete. Now I cannot even tell you what my favorite color is. Hopefully the day will come when I can rediscover a little of this, while grasping some sort of balance.
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